I'm always torn between wanting to tell my story to let you know exactly what is in my head.
To let you know my secrets, truths and half-truths.
The problem is being outwardly unhappy and consistently so, pushes people away.
No matter if you say you're always there, but there is only so much you can listen.
On the other hand to pretend that everything is fine is to poison myself from the inside out.
To have you that think i am melodramatic, seeking attention, and pessimistic or to
drown in my own mind?

I have so much things kept inside, and i have lack of place/someone to voice out. It's like, things/people in my life are having dramatic thing, and to be honest, i do not wish these changes to be happening. But at second thought, things/people don't always stay the same, ain't they? People especially, they would have their own piece of mind, they would eventually do what they want to do and leave you. It is just something you cannot stop and something you cannot do. Like wise, Best friends are the same, you think they will stay there forever, but you know they will leave one-day, no matter how close the both of you are. That is the reason why, hi-bye friends came in. I am someone who is very difficult to allow people to gain my trust, therefore i have very little true friends. Nobody would be taken to a place call "for-granted" after they enter my life. It is somehow a blessing in disguise but somewhat not. I only wishes our friendship will always always stay the same, and that nothing would ever ever come in between us. ♥ AMC, Claudia Tan, Grace Goh, Walter Tan.
I'll be contented.

With love,
(S)erena Tan