I don't know where to start and where to end.

I did give myself many chances to accept the character of one.

I keep telling myself not to have high expectation of one. But, the closer I get with one, the higher the expectation I would have for one.


I am afraid of falling badly again. I have fell more than twice.



Or should I just let it slip through my hand? I bet you must be thinking whether are you the one.


This is the first time in the year that I am thinking about this. Sigh.

What a lousy guy.